Can't stay in one place ....
I cant stay in one place anymore.
I have the enormous NEED to TRAVEL. To move. To see new things. To find new things and to having to get used to a new environment.
I NEED A CHALLENGE!
I need to meet new people. I need a new atmosphere, I need to face newness, I need to....
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and I need to feel appreciated, I need to feel I am useful, I need to feel unsubstitutable! I need to know that things actually depend on me, and I am making a difference! Of course, I am talking about work now... Yes, I am a bit disappointed now... well, I am a LOT DISAPPOINTED!
I wish I had done differently (just) a month ago, and I would not be in Milan by July....
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I feel sooooo nostalgic about Spain (listening to spanish radio) , about Holland (it is so rainy in Milan in these days) and about Hungary (speaking in Hungarian, and being able to easily realize my enterprise...)
I am starting to feel, that it made no sense to come back to Milan... I was sooooo stupid.
A person who is guided purely by his feelings cannot make the right decisions.
Again, I can only say, I learnt from my mistake. Will not commit it anymore...
I will be out of here with the first decent offer...
I have the enormous NEED to TRAVEL. To move. To see new things. To find new things and to having to get used to a new environment.
I NEED A CHALLENGE!
I need to meet new people. I need a new atmosphere, I need to face newness, I need to....
---
and I need to feel appreciated, I need to feel I am useful, I need to feel unsubstitutable! I need to know that things actually depend on me, and I am making a difference! Of course, I am talking about work now... Yes, I am a bit disappointed now... well, I am a LOT DISAPPOINTED!
I wish I had done differently (just) a month ago, and I would not be in Milan by July....
---
I feel sooooo nostalgic about Spain (listening to spanish radio) , about Holland (it is so rainy in Milan in these days) and about Hungary (speaking in Hungarian, and being able to easily realize my enterprise...)
I am starting to feel, that it made no sense to come back to Milan... I was sooooo stupid.
A person who is guided purely by his feelings cannot make the right decisions.
Again, I can only say, I learnt from my mistake. Will not commit it anymore...
I will be out of here with the first decent offer...
posted by GG at 10:51 PM
2 Comments:
Fuck... Gabor I have the very same feeling! I guess once you become an expat, you will be an expat for ever . I would like to come back to Spain for a while, go to the US or Canada. spend a few years in Singapore and get my PhD , family, good friends 'in the mean time'. But maybe it is impossible. Right now, I am looking for a summer job anywhere in the world... another country I could get addicted to?
There is a Polish saying: it is always better there, where we are not at the moment.
There might be some sense in it, don't you think?
Anyway, you are not alone Gabor. Take care!
oh yeah... that was Maciej.. :-)
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